Sunday, March 02, 2008
sorry for the lack of update..
nth much to blog abt..
my hand hurts frm the sparring this morning...
too bad i am lousy..still need to be more stronger...
2nd dan of black belt and i am still like a 1st dan..
i think i will go for free sparring everyday..
break all my bones and at least i can learn sumthing...
no pain no gain....
ok..enough of my half broken arms
abt sec 1 camp i guess is ok..
is messy but still ok...evryone try thier best..
i cant say is not good becos i didnt be much help after all...
feel so sorry abt cant helping up much..
too bad my leadership quality is not good as the others..
maybe i can onli use my leadership in bt but not the sch..
dif ppl accept differ leadership..
i dun think servant leadership or power/dictator type will wk in sch this time..
that wrk in bt but not sch..
as being mentors, i am still under training catergory after 3 yrs..
to be a full plege mentor it take more than a yr to do so..
my partner has achieve the name as mentor..
but i took 3 yrs and i am still a training mentor..
this show hw hard it is to achieved the name as mentors..
when mr michael call me a mentor i feel so bad..
i am not much help still..i can onli stand and do nth..
all i do was agree with wat other senior say and i act on...
i think i am the worse senior bck at this yr sec 1 camp..
no place for me to perform my leadership..
all i do was have fun and thats all...
doubt that i will go bck next yr...
just let other ppl have the chance to be a senior and perform since i cant be much help....
alright shall not talk abt sec 1 camp...
hmm..got posted to my 1 choice for appeal..
unexpected...
ok...
fuck evrything when wrg...
(*^&*^&*(
i shall stop b4 i get out of pt...
and it hurts typing nw....
thats all
this crappy world-}}8:09 pm
