Thursday, July 31, 2008
Damn it, what a day...
IPCT project is nonsense...troublesome project....
My head still hurt, the blister on the leg still swollen and my back still ache.....
Blueblack aint going off......
ask me hw i got those, well it is from the training at tuesday...
rounds after all the kicking and practicing of footwear, i spar with sir wei shun...
he is a ex national player, he has got good reflex, speed, momentum and strength..
my match with him is like a level 20 VS a level 120....
[Below include technical terms from taekwondo, so if dont know what the hell i am talking about, leave it....]
start of the round..things go well...not until when he charge in with a double turning kick... i block one and the lower but the other one is just too fast to be avoided so it landed on my head...*Knock*
well...i told myself is only 1 kick....i can still make it...so we continue..i counter him but he is way to fast, i cant even touch him..so here he come again landed another hard and fast kick on my back head...*now i feel dizzy already*
referee started counting, 1..2...3...4, i told myself i cant give out..sir vincent(my cheif instructor and the referee) already know i lost my confident....he shouted at me..ask me to gain my confidient back...so i hold back to sparring position again...and once the referee start the sparring again...other hard kick land on my head AGAIN, the referee didnt shout stop, so sir wei shun continue attacking me with a backtrust kick on my waist..that when i felt that i am weak...the match sparring session continue for another 1 min and it finally end..
after getting out of the session..i feel weak..a blister and a cut got on my leg...bleed...hehe...my head feels heavy...and my leg feel soft...haha so i when to treat my wound...so total...i got kick 3 time on the head and alot alot of time on my body area..
i really think that i am lousy...and i want to go for national tournament....what i naive person i am....got to train more...friday must go train...i dont care about the injury...i want gain skill and get better....i want to WIN!!! i got sick being a loser already!!! i have learn taekwondo for 8 damn years, a blackbelt 2nd dan!!! and i haven win once in any tournament....nver....i dont want to get bounded to be a loser...no more!!!!
so well i am glad that i got trash the hell out....i am not angry...in fact i appreciate the kicks..because i learn alot of thing from him...i really envy his sparring skills... so friday if possible, i am going to spar with him again!...NO PAIN NO GAIN!!!
so well i will conserve my emotion nowadays, a fighter nver show his emotion..so fren i aint emo...i am training myself...physically and emotionally....also i am too tired to show emotion...so stop calling me emo or else i am really going to kick all of your asses....*yawns*
looking 4ward to tmr training...i must grow strong....at the cost of everything and anything!
and last i wish i could play the beautiful piano...but not...i will only spoil its beautiness...
thats all of my nonsense rant.....bb....
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