Monday, August 10, 2009
Cry out, the scream of my heart~
The bittersweet memories. Locked up in my heart for eternity. Tearing me apart from the inside. The unforgetable pain.
What's sad about love?
It's when you happen to know that there's just no hope for you being together yet you still pray to make it work. It's when your mind says let go but your hearts says hold on, and most of all, it's when no matter how you try to forget him/her you just can't, because you still love him/her & you just dont know why.
Try loving someone you've loved before and you'll realize that it will either lead to the same thing that happened before, or something better. Not hard isn't it?
But why not try loving someone who doesn't love you back. It's either you see yourself giving up or dying daily.
If you love and get hurt, love more.
If you love more and get hurt more, love even more.
If you love even more and get hurt even more, love some more until it hurts no more.
The gauge of how much you truly treasure something or someone is not how happy you are with them, but how sad you are when you lose them.
One grows distant from another not because of indifference, but because of fear. There's the fear that the hurt gets greater as one gets closer - a recognition of the tendency to fall deeply, and consequently drown in a quicksand of stupid irrationalities. Sometimes, what drives one away is not the absence of emotion, but the overwhelming presence of it.
Falling in love is never a decision - always by chance.
Staying in love is never a chance - always by choice.
And falling out of love is never a choice - always a decision.
Attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. Listen, fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen. We may meet someone by chance, but loving & staying with that someone is still a choice.
This last portion is for the ones who truly understand what it means. The ones who care, the ones who love, the ones who treasure.
Just because my eyes don't have tears, that doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry.
Just because you always see me strong, it doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.
Sometimes I choose to pretend I'm happy so I dont have to explain to people who would never understand. Smiling is always easier than explaining to all why I am sad.
It's never the tears that measure the pain, sometimes it's the smile we fake. A person who truly loves you is someone who sees the pain in your eye, while everyone still believes in the smile on your face.
The person you love most has the best capacity to make you the happiest person in the world, and may give you the worst heartache you can never imagine.
Time can heal wounds, but it can never get back what we once had & lost. Time can't tell when or how we would move on after all was said and done, because God gave us time but we never valued this gift he had given us. So learn to treasure the ones you choose to love now, because when they go, there won't be time to have them back.
In life, I have done every way of fighting. Heard every painful truth, been in every heartbreaking scene, and felt that very dreadful feeling. I thought going through it all will then make me realize that i have to stop the fight at least to save a little for myself, but you know what's funny?
It is when I seem to be so much tired of it all but still can't just quit no matter how hard it is. And I have to continue hoping that one day, I'll be able to find someone who could love me not just "right" but "real".
Love is like giving someone a gun, having them point it at your heart, and trusting them to never pull the trigger.
I don't know why we all hang on to something we know we're better of letting go. It's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have. Some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing, but the truth is - "To have it halfway is harder than not having it at all."
I want to know someone who could ease the pain that I have, who could hold me tight, the one who will never let me go till every drop of tears that I have has fallen, till every strength that I have left has already gone. Then i can no longer move as he/she lays me down on my bed, sings me a lullaby till I fall asleep and whisper beside me,
"I will never leave you, angel of mine.
"I will never leave you, angel of mine.
Time may take us away, space may keep us apart, rumors and hurts may break us down, yet no matter where life leaves us...
I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE & I'LL NEVER STOP CARING."
"So give me reason; To prove me wrong; To wash this memory clean.
Quote From: Nebby"
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